It is amazing the things life can throw at a person. Especially all at once!
My mother is having a lump taken from her breast today. I am the person who is the support for her. I'm perfectly ok being there for my mom. The thing is suddenly sue isn't JUST my mom, she is human. She isn't immortal. And suddenly I'm scared for her. Even getting the IV put in scares me. She is part of a group of women who I constantly refer to as the strongest women I know. I should put out there that I don't mean physically strong but emotionally and mentally strong. The women on my mother's side of the family - I think came from the Amazons! They are amazing women! But this year has been a reminder to me that they are amazing but alas they are also mortal. I'm scared. I worry that my son won't know the strength of these amazing women in our family. I worry that my siblings' children won't know the strength of our women. I don't think that I myself will be able to show them by myself..
And at the same time, some how I stand in awe of my husband. I have always been a very independent woman. I have always worked at LEAST one job. Suddenly with this pregnancy I have no job and am relying entirely. On my husband for everything. At times I feel bad like I have given him a huge burden of taking care of myself, our unborn child and our three fur kids. Then out of the blue my amazing husband says something like, I would rather you be home to raise our children then put them in daycare. And I am suddenly floored by his total conviction in my being home with our babies!
Life is so full of up's and down's that never seem to end..
My mother is having a lump taken from her breast today. I am the person who is the support for her. I'm perfectly ok being there for my mom. The thing is suddenly sue isn't JUST my mom, she is human. She isn't immortal. And suddenly I'm scared for her. Even getting the IV put in scares me. She is part of a group of women who I constantly refer to as the strongest women I know. I should put out there that I don't mean physically strong but emotionally and mentally strong. The women on my mother's side of the family - I think came from the Amazons! They are amazing women! But this year has been a reminder to me that they are amazing but alas they are also mortal. I'm scared. I worry that my son won't know the strength of these amazing women in our family. I worry that my siblings' children won't know the strength of our women. I don't think that I myself will be able to show them by myself..
And at the same time, some how I stand in awe of my husband. I have always been a very independent woman. I have always worked at LEAST one job. Suddenly with this pregnancy I have no job and am relying entirely. On my husband for everything. At times I feel bad like I have given him a huge burden of taking care of myself, our unborn child and our three fur kids. Then out of the blue my amazing husband says something like, I would rather you be home to raise our children then put them in daycare. And I am suddenly floored by his total conviction in my being home with our babies!
Life is so full of up's and down's that never seem to end..
